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This page conserves the character fiction forum of the Agora forums. The posts have been left unformatted to make it easier for users to copy them here and paste them into the new forums.

Oren Itanooren12/10/08 18:25View
Missy12/10/08 22:22View
The backstory of Vulpes.Vulpes12/11/08 01:46View
Erica KesselErica Kessel12/11/08 07:52View
Missy's Story.. a Do-over and another ChapterMissy12/11/08 22:38View
UsrBinPerl12/11/08 23:48View
oren12/11/08 23:57View
Kwekwe's BackstoryKwekwe Karu12/12/08 01:02View
UsrBinPerl12/13/08 00:35View
Eternal SunsetMissy12/13/08 12:19View
Kit Ristow12/14/08 00:01View
ShyMathys12/14/08 00:27View
MasksAlissa12/14/08 00:58View
Lorae12/14/08 01:24View
UsrBinPerl12/14/08 22:07View
Missy's Story Continued..Part 3Missy12/16/08 08:43View
Missy's Story Part 4: Innocence ShatteredMissy12/16/08 18:34View
Missy's Story Part 5: Innocence AnnihilatedMissy12/18/08 17:16View
Small DangersVox12/18/08 21:36View
Saint of The Abyss: Part 1Luciferiel12/19/08 05:21View
Zero....-1Justa Zero12/19/08 17:38View
Zero....1Justa Zero12/19/08 18:26View
Óðr’s Daughter. Chapter I: A Guiding DreamAsil Karu12/20/08 02:39View
Omega To Alphaerinnic12/23/08 16:49View
Her Bloody Tears [-Past Event-]Methias12/23/08 18:09View
Lost Kitsune - A Shattered MindKiera12/25/08 18:51View
Usr's story Part IVUsrBinPerl12/27/08 20:34View
The EssexHeir Maelstrom12/29/08 04:23View
Kwekwe's shameKwekwe Karu12/30/08 18:11View
Joint Round Robin Fic Anyone...?erinnic12/30/08 19:07View
God Was On Her Lips As She Diederinnic01/02/09 23:31View
Love and Betrayal - A New Beginningkessjuliesse01/03/09 13:46View
The Diary of Cody Woodhencodywoodhen01/05/09 21:35View
Missy's Story Part 6: Innocence AbductedMissy01/07/09 06:23View
Cursed BladeYannis_Martynov01/08/09 21:27View
Story Thread: Community Round Robin Ficerinnic01/09/09 23:25View
The demon withinCanly Fargis01/11/09 16:14View
Ziau- CoLA's Very Own CasanovaZiau01/13/09 02:09View
Twisted Attentionserinnic01/21/09 20:34View
Inspiration- music and roleplayZiau01/26/09 08:01View
Compilation! Where were you when it all happened?Ziau01/28/09 09:12View
The Clock Struck MidnightMalice Ashdene01/28/09 22:31View
With Precision- a poem by Kelly Welch A.k.A Ziau Jua.Ziau01/29/09 04:36View
Alisa's dicovery of a new world (character sheet + story)Alisa Draconia01/30/09 19:17View
The Shadow Stepper- Ziau the Enshadowed.Ziau02/01/09 07:26View
Krista Lemon arrives to the streets of Lost AngelsKrista02/03/09 00:09View
Back Story Upto the Excile of Rune.RuneCrimson02/03/09 21:59View
War with the Brood, war with the Coven, and the Pack.Ziau02/07/09 04:11View
-- Halcyon's Backstory --Halcyon Nacht02/08/09 00:22View
Planer/Exonar family (aka, Erinyse, Khalan, Viridian, Cummere, Selena)Cummere Mayo02/08/09 03:53View
Kit's BackstoryKit Ristow02/10/09 18:40View
Eyes in the DarkKeyla02/11/09 09:47View
Surfacing Part ILlyr02/13/09 22:21View
Surfacing Part IILlyr02/13/09 22:35View
Tama-Chan: A Cat's Story (Tamara's background)Tamara02/17/09 07:35View
Project: A map of Post Apocalypse North AmericaTamara02/17/09 19:21View
Dreamtime RevelationsWinter02/19/09 18:08View
Reaver-the echo of the BlackwindAntiZero02/23/09 00:43View
On the Origin of SpeciesTamara02/25/09 22:38View
ConfessionKit Ristow02/26/09 01:39View
Personnel File: Pointe, Zsuzsanna C. (Inactive, Deceased)Su Pointe02/26/09 03:32View
Malice, in a Different Kind of WonderlandMalice Ashdene02/27/09 18:07View
The Dark of InspirationKit Ristow03/01/09 21:42View
Jheric: CrucifiedKayle Ashdene03/03/09 10:53View
It's my lifearsene_Braveheart03/05/09 18:18View
The Tradgedy of the HybridDigital Enigma03/29/09 07:09View
The Sin of Wrathmolly switchblade04/02/09 21:28View
Golden BoyEphran Ehrler04/15/09 06:12View
Story About A GirlAesendria04/24/09 15:34View
Climaxe by Smith and WessonSloan04/28/09 06:19View
My new project ATTENTION Russian Characters!Ziau05/01/09 06:42View
**NSFW** A Typical Tuesday Night for MissyMissy05/06/09 20:48View
Post your profile links!Cortero Landar05/07/09 10:25View
Making Logan SufferAesendria05/12/09 07:09View
Jeanne VarunJeanne Varun05/14/09 08:24View
The Vanguard's True PurposeLogan05/16/09 01:03View
Cortero's Infernal ArmorCortero Landar05/16/09 06:52View
Bookstore SurpriseAesendria05/16/09 23:16View
Post your profile links if you have in-story info in them!Cortero Landar05/18/09 10:33View
PromisesAesendria05/24/09 02:44View
Cyber Evolution Bios, Anur Seda, Cyber Reaper, and Commander of CETheassassin06/08/09 11:28View
Was any of it real?Youko_Giha06/12/09 15:28View
A shift in prioritiesLogan06/17/09 04:21View
Going homeLudvig06/17/09 19:10View
'Ren in Japanoren06/18/09 23:11View
Thelma across the boardThelemaJuliesse06/26/09 15:09View
Pre-fiction: How Kayteear got here.Kayteear07/15/09 16:43View
Story TimeCharissa07/17/09 19:03View
Pack Airship RP.Tai07/27/09 02:49View
My CharacterLilith1308/05/09 22:34View
LilithLilith1308/06/09 09:30View
The Haunter in the DarkShadow08/14/09 21:50View
The Flying HeadsKwekwe Karu08/16/09 16:52View
Why selling coffins is impossible in CoLAZiau08/23/09 04:14View
Paint it red!Ziau08/23/09 07:51View
Young Cowards.Ziau08/23/09 08:28View
Great video for RPers and people passionate about writing.Ziau09/05/09 08:55View
Dux - 264 BCDux09/10/09 18:41View
The Thing at South Gate SanitariumShadow09/15/09 22:09View
♪♫ Do you wanna RP my avatar ♪♫Kayteear09/17/09 14:45View
Jessica's MotherJessica Susser09/21/09 04:19View
Ziau Challenged me to. NSFWChasityDawes09/21/09 07:17View
The Divine Machine.................Theassassin09/21/09 22:29View
I Bleed my Blood for Myself.Ziau09/22/09 22:28View
Cronicle of a deathKayteear09/24/09 01:34View
"Please Allow Me to Introduce Myself"DavidJoshua Artful09/26/09 17:07View
Old Versus NewDigital Enigma09/27/09 20:28View
The Shadowed Order, The Eternal Order, Ordo MachinaTheassassin10/06/09 06:55View
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The here, the now, the dead. The Minus.TheMinus Ziskey10/10/09 12:41View
Before bed ritual.Amy Guisse10/17/09 04:13View
Alone?Ike10/18/09 15:34View
IS this High School again?Theassassin10/24/09 12:49View
Sidhe vs DrowOrlok Lectar10/29/09 04:08View
Daddy bluesarsene_Braveheart11/17/09 19:01View
Chronicles of SIEagentlyseria11/22/09 12:27View
The Lady In Black(A Drokan Exile Twisted Love Story)AntiZero11/29/09 06:36View
The growing Darkness.Leirain Koray12/01/09 11:04View
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City of Lost Jackman: The Untold Hollywood BlockbusterAntiZero12/02/09 07:11View
Coming home for christmas ..Kes12/10/09 22:17View
Bunneh Vs. Lich, DBZ styleKarsha Yutani12/14/09 11:59View
A FarewellRoland12/16/09 20:50View
Of Death and RebirthDigital Enigma12/21/09 20:14View
The Story of ReocoReoko Farspire02/06/10 20:47View
Homecoming......... The Story of Orpheus DarkfoldOrpheusDarkfold03/11/10 02:27View
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Who owns who?Kayteear03/22/10 22:03View
Missing the Oceanricercar03/23/10 22:27View
Letter to the editor: Manners in LATink03/25/10 16:58View
Chasity BackstoryChasityDawes06/14/10 19:43View
Something Black and Violent...DavidJoshua Artful06/19/10 22:23View
Doctor Visiterinnic07/12/10 04:26View
Gabby Perdidevacantghost07/19/10 04:42View
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ricercar[color=blue][i]This character dream was so vivid that it had me feeling cheated for most of a day. Thanks for the flawless RP, knife wielder, Teacher, peers, beloved wife and son.[/i][/color]

I am a prodigy among the Eternal people. Before my peers know it is possible, I learn to remove what is not my essential being, leaving only my self. I surprise my teachers because I have learned to be my self without express guidance. The lessons for removing non self are advanced, not accessible to most of my age peers.

I experiment during a reprimand event, from boredom, and do not understand my accomplishment. A Teacher observes me becoming exclusively my self. Without my knowledge or consent, this Teacher proposes my promotion into the higher ranks. Each of the higher-ranked individuals has learned to be exclusively self. I am promoted. I feel this is premature, but I accept the decision of the Teachers. There is no personal mentoring, yet the Teacher who observed me henceforth appears to have special interest in my progress. The Teacher ensures I am enabled more than others. I am given freedoms to choose methods and manner of learning. I forge my own path.

I understand the flesh is not my essential self. I learn to disperse into the universe upon death, and subsequently reform my essential self. This I practice with apprehension until I am well-accustomed to it. Among the Eternal people, reforming self is not invariably successful.

Whenever I reform, I always return to the place of learning, where I explore, aid, watch others learn. I am told my rate of dispersal is increased for certain deaths. I achieve speed through imagining the universe as a blue ocean, lying back, and allowing the waters take me. Yet time is rarely of the essence.

As a member of the higher rank, I learn some of the Eternal people dream of a remote Friendly people, and can speak to them. Having a vision of the Friendly people also earns promotion to the higher rank. Gatherings are held with the only purpose to speak to the Friendly people. These gatherings—attended only by eligible Speakers and their Teachers—are not to be interrupted or attended by others. The nature of the gatherings is hidden from the general population. Many non-speakers would be pleased to discover more about the Friendly people. Although this curiosity is not part of my self, I simulate curiosity to fit among others who yearn.

During one gathering, I surreptitiously sought and opened the Book maintained by absent teachers, knowing it contains teacher observations regarding those who are exclusively self, like me. Within I learned the Book also contains observations about Speakers, with detailed descriptions of their first visions.

Other matters in the Book include detailed descriptions of dangers to the Eternal people. Like gatherings, dangers are concealed from the general population. Among the dangers described is a knife, seen in a recent vision by an age peer. The knife—much feared by the teachers, as well as the Speaker who envisioned it—is an object with such power I avert my eyes from the detailed description in the Book. I very much do not wish to know all that is known. I sense knowing the knife’s specifics would expose my self permanently to its fearsome powers.

Another danger is a Diminished people who are the enemy of the Eternal people. The enemy individuals originate within my people, but are permanently changed, are eternal no more. The Diminished people envy and dislike Eternal people. They attempt to disperse individuals of the Eternal people, hoping to prevent reformation. The Diminished people possess the knife.

Individuals of the Diminished people occasionally attack the Eternal people. During attacks, our higher order individuals approach an enemy, embrace one, and die with that enemy. We disperse … with intent to reform the self subsequently. Subsequent reforming is not always accomplished. However, an enemy who dies with us does not reform.

The Eternal people know sadness when an individual does not subsequently reform, whether Eternal or Diminished. Yet in my time, my people know less sadness, fewer dangers than previous times. Attacks by Diminished people are nearly extinct, although challenges continue to be issued by enemy individuals: duels. More rarely yet are challenges from legions of Diminished people: wars.

A field of conflict exists at one border of the place of learning. A wall of Doors separates the Diminished people’s land and our land. Doors are reminiscent of wood with leaded glass, alike as snowflakes. We can observe through the Doors when the Diminished approach on their side. Doors are opened only by an enemy. The Eternal people do not generally pass through. During wars, however, individuals of the higher rank, such as my self, often pursue an enemy through a Door to the other side. On the other side it is harder to disperse, one of the greatest dangers to the self. I do not hesitate passing though a Door.

Fewer conflicts with the Diminished people is, in a small measure, due to my self. I am able to reform my self after dispersal in less time than most. Alone among the Eternal people, I can disperse and reform fast enough to rejoin the same battle. When I imagine the universe as a blue ocean, and lean back into this sanctuary, I disperse like red dye in blue water, and can reform almost instantly.

Duels and wars are fought with one individual of the enemy approached by one individual of the Eternal people. But soon my people learn there is more to victory than simply embracing an enemy individual. Once my speed is recognized by the Diminished people, an enemy individual flees as I approach. Teachers of the Eternal people begin to offer tactics and strategy. I learn, so do the Diminished people. The Diminished people introduce simultaneous attacks of multiple individuals on one individual. We cannot respond in kind. Should more than two individuals die while embraced, none reforms.

My speed increases still. Soon enough I am able to reform my self many times per battle, dispersing large numbers of Diminished people. Risking my self so often, dispersing and reforming so often, I am not without fear. The Diminished people fear me, too. Enemy individuals group together to target me continuously during each war. Yet now I meet groups without hesitation. I can embrace one individual and swiftly die before others can accompany us. I would have been proud, had pride been part of my self.

When I reform, I always return to the field of battle, even when no war is present. My home feels empty. I begin to travel, day trips outside the teaching place, into the lands between. I disperse the Diminished people I encounter. My forays grow more ambitious, I begin to reform in the lands between. I explore without searching for Diminished people. I enjoy odd places. There are creatures between, not Eternal people, not Friendly people, not Diminished people. Thus I am not lonely in the land between. I ignore risk and danger, until…

I remember a public restaurant in which an enemy individual began to destroy. I departed this restaurant swiftly, but paused, then returned immediately to show safe exit to the creatures. This exposure to the enemy was dangerous, a risk to my eternal self. Yet I saw the creatures die without dispersal, and risked my eternal self. My teachers were not pleased to learn of the risk I took in the lands between, on behalf of creatures. However, learning of my deed, age peers began to join me in my travels.

I remember a series of wars. Enemy weapons grew faster; but I dispersed faster still. None of the Eternal people traveled as fast as me. My peers began to seek me less often.

I remember a powerful enemy, a leader, an individual who persisted though battles with many of the Eternal people. He wields the knife. When I was finally able to approach him, he passed the knife handle to me, and I accepted it. When I embraced him, he smiled, impaled his self. I tried to disperse, but I remained, with him holding me tightly. Long after he died and dispersed, my self remained in the blackened sea. Teachers tell me much time passed between that death and my reformation. The knife reforms with me, but I cannot ever find it.

I remember taking more risks, exposing myself to more danger as time passed, even when in war or otherwise accompanied by Eternal people. Many Eternal people died and did not reform. I can’t remember their names.

I remember indifference and ennui, and darkened water, and pain.

I awoke in fear, in my home between, having learned something important. I had to return to the leaning place, inform the Eternal people.

I attempted to disperse into my essential self, to reform in the place of learning. The waves were far from me. I lay there on my bed, eyes tightly closed, bringing them to me. Then I heard my beloved wife move in the nearby room. [i]I love my wife and son.[/i] I heard waves retreat. [i]I’m not married. It’s just a dream.[/i] I felt dry sand beneath me. [i]I won't leave my wife and son.[/i] In the mind’s eye, I saw my future, saw myself die, unable to reform, and I wondered if I had diminished. Again I tried to lean back, to float, but she sat on the bed, leaned over, kissed me, held me, and my fear passed.

Later I snapped awake, alone, longing desperately for nothing I can describe further.
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