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This page conserves the character fiction forum of the Agora forums. The posts have been left unformatted to make it easier for users to copy them here and paste them into the new forums.

Oren Itanooren12/10/08 18:25View
Missy12/10/08 22:22View
The backstory of Vulpes.Vulpes12/11/08 01:46View
Erica KesselErica Kessel12/11/08 07:52View
Missy's Story.. a Do-over and another ChapterMissy12/11/08 22:38View
UsrBinPerl12/11/08 23:48View
oren12/11/08 23:57View
Kwekwe's BackstoryKwekwe Karu12/12/08 01:02View
UsrBinPerl12/13/08 00:35View
Eternal SunsetMissy12/13/08 12:19View
Kit Ristow12/14/08 00:01View
ShyMathys12/14/08 00:27View
MasksAlissa12/14/08 00:58View
Lorae12/14/08 01:24View
UsrBinPerl12/14/08 22:07View
Missy's Story Continued..Part 3Missy12/16/08 08:43View
Missy's Story Part 4: Innocence ShatteredMissy12/16/08 18:34View
Missy's Story Part 5: Innocence AnnihilatedMissy12/18/08 17:16View
Small DangersVox12/18/08 21:36View
Saint of The Abyss: Part 1Luciferiel12/19/08 05:21View
Zero....-1Justa Zero12/19/08 17:38View
Zero....1Justa Zero12/19/08 18:26View
Óðr’s Daughter. Chapter I: A Guiding DreamAsil Karu12/20/08 02:39View
Omega To Alphaerinnic12/23/08 16:49View
Her Bloody Tears [-Past Event-]Methias12/23/08 18:09View
Lost Kitsune - A Shattered MindKiera12/25/08 18:51View
Usr's story Part IVUsrBinPerl12/27/08 20:34View
The EssexHeir Maelstrom12/29/08 04:23View
Kwekwe's shameKwekwe Karu12/30/08 18:11View
Joint Round Robin Fic Anyone...?erinnic12/30/08 19:07View
God Was On Her Lips As She Diederinnic01/02/09 23:31View
Love and Betrayal - A New Beginningkessjuliesse01/03/09 13:46View
The Diary of Cody Woodhencodywoodhen01/05/09 21:35View
Missy's Story Part 6: Innocence AbductedMissy01/07/09 06:23View
Cursed BladeYannis_Martynov01/08/09 21:27View
Story Thread: Community Round Robin Ficerinnic01/09/09 23:25View
The demon withinCanly Fargis01/11/09 16:14View
Ziau- CoLA's Very Own CasanovaZiau01/13/09 02:09View
Twisted Attentionserinnic01/21/09 20:34View
Inspiration- music and roleplayZiau01/26/09 08:01View
Compilation! Where were you when it all happened?Ziau01/28/09 09:12View
The Clock Struck MidnightMalice Ashdene01/28/09 22:31View
With Precision- a poem by Kelly Welch A.k.A Ziau Jua.Ziau01/29/09 04:36View
Alisa's dicovery of a new world (character sheet + story)Alisa Draconia01/30/09 19:17View
The Shadow Stepper- Ziau the Enshadowed.Ziau02/01/09 07:26View
Krista Lemon arrives to the streets of Lost AngelsKrista02/03/09 00:09View
Back Story Upto the Excile of Rune.RuneCrimson02/03/09 21:59View
War with the Brood, war with the Coven, and the Pack.Ziau02/07/09 04:11View
-- Halcyon's Backstory --Halcyon Nacht02/08/09 00:22View
Planer/Exonar family (aka, Erinyse, Khalan, Viridian, Cummere, Selena)Cummere Mayo02/08/09 03:53View
Kit's BackstoryKit Ristow02/10/09 18:40View
Eyes in the DarkKeyla02/11/09 09:47View
Surfacing Part ILlyr02/13/09 22:21View
Surfacing Part IILlyr02/13/09 22:35View
Tama-Chan: A Cat's Story (Tamara's background)Tamara02/17/09 07:35View
Project: A map of Post Apocalypse North AmericaTamara02/17/09 19:21View
Dreamtime RevelationsWinter02/19/09 18:08View
Reaver-the echo of the BlackwindAntiZero02/23/09 00:43View
On the Origin of SpeciesTamara02/25/09 22:38View
ConfessionKit Ristow02/26/09 01:39View
Personnel File: Pointe, Zsuzsanna C. (Inactive, Deceased)Su Pointe02/26/09 03:32View
Malice, in a Different Kind of WonderlandMalice Ashdene02/27/09 18:07View
The Dark of InspirationKit Ristow03/01/09 21:42View
Jheric: CrucifiedKayle Ashdene03/03/09 10:53View
It's my lifearsene_Braveheart03/05/09 18:18View
The Tradgedy of the HybridDigital Enigma03/29/09 07:09View
The Sin of Wrathmolly switchblade04/02/09 21:28View
Golden BoyEphran Ehrler04/15/09 06:12View
Story About A GirlAesendria04/24/09 15:34View
Climaxe by Smith and WessonSloan04/28/09 06:19View
My new project ATTENTION Russian Characters!Ziau05/01/09 06:42View
**NSFW** A Typical Tuesday Night for MissyMissy05/06/09 20:48View
Post your profile links!Cortero Landar05/07/09 10:25View
Making Logan SufferAesendria05/12/09 07:09View
Jeanne VarunJeanne Varun05/14/09 08:24View
The Vanguard's True PurposeLogan05/16/09 01:03View
Cortero's Infernal ArmorCortero Landar05/16/09 06:52View
Bookstore SurpriseAesendria05/16/09 23:16View
Post your profile links if you have in-story info in them!Cortero Landar05/18/09 10:33View
PromisesAesendria05/24/09 02:44View
Cyber Evolution Bios, Anur Seda, Cyber Reaper, and Commander of CETheassassin06/08/09 11:28View
Was any of it real?Youko_Giha06/12/09 15:28View
A shift in prioritiesLogan06/17/09 04:21View
Going homeLudvig06/17/09 19:10View
'Ren in Japanoren06/18/09 23:11View
Thelma across the boardThelemaJuliesse06/26/09 15:09View
Pre-fiction: How Kayteear got here.Kayteear07/15/09 16:43View
Story TimeCharissa07/17/09 19:03View
Pack Airship RP.Tai07/27/09 02:49View
My CharacterLilith1308/05/09 22:34View
LilithLilith1308/06/09 09:30View
The Haunter in the DarkShadow08/14/09 21:50View
The Flying HeadsKwekwe Karu08/16/09 16:52View
Why selling coffins is impossible in CoLAZiau08/23/09 04:14View
Paint it red!Ziau08/23/09 07:51View
Young Cowards.Ziau08/23/09 08:28View
Great video for RPers and people passionate about writing.Ziau09/05/09 08:55View
Dux - 264 BCDux09/10/09 18:41View
The Thing at South Gate SanitariumShadow09/15/09 22:09View
♪♫ Do you wanna RP my avatar ♪♫Kayteear09/17/09 14:45View
Jessica's MotherJessica Susser09/21/09 04:19View
Ziau Challenged me to. NSFWChasityDawes09/21/09 07:17View
The Divine Machine.................Theassassin09/21/09 22:29View
I Bleed my Blood for Myself.Ziau09/22/09 22:28View
Cronicle of a deathKayteear09/24/09 01:34View
"Please Allow Me to Introduce Myself"DavidJoshua Artful09/26/09 17:07View
Old Versus NewDigital Enigma09/27/09 20:28View
The Shadowed Order, The Eternal Order, Ordo MachinaTheassassin10/06/09 06:55View
Elamyrath's HistoryElamyrath10/10/09 00:52View
The here, the now, the dead. The Minus.TheMinus Ziskey10/10/09 12:41View
Before bed ritual.Amy Guisse10/17/09 04:13View
Alone?Ike10/18/09 15:34View
IS this High School again?Theassassin10/24/09 12:49View
Sidhe vs DrowOrlok Lectar10/29/09 04:08View
Daddy bluesarsene_Braveheart11/17/09 19:01View
Chronicles of SIEagentlyseria11/22/09 12:27View
The Lady In Black(A Drokan Exile Twisted Love Story)AntiZero11/29/09 06:36View
The growing Darkness.Leirain Koray12/01/09 11:04View
The lycanKayteear12/01/09 16:00View
City of Lost Jackman: The Untold Hollywood BlockbusterAntiZero12/02/09 07:11View
Coming home for christmas ..Kes12/10/09 22:17View
Bunneh Vs. Lich, DBZ styleKarsha Yutani12/14/09 11:59View
A FarewellRoland12/16/09 20:50View
Of Death and RebirthDigital Enigma12/21/09 20:14View
The Story of ReocoReoko Farspire02/06/10 20:47View
Homecoming......... The Story of Orpheus DarkfoldOrpheusDarkfold03/11/10 02:27View
The Story of Orpheus Part 2OrpheusDarkfold03/13/10 23:15View
Who owns who?Kayteear03/22/10 22:03View
Missing the Oceanricercar03/23/10 22:27View
Letter to the editor: Manners in LATink03/25/10 16:58View
Chasity BackstoryChasityDawes06/14/10 19:43View
Something Black and Violent...DavidJoshua Artful06/19/10 22:23View
Doctor Visiterinnic07/12/10 04:26View
Gabby Perdidevacantghost07/19/10 04:42View
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Amy GuisseTired. The only word that could describe the way she felt. Constant exhaustion, no matter how late she slept, no matter how often. She wasn't that old, maybe twenty if that. She was fit and strong. Alive. That was more then most could say now a day. Slumping down onto the broken down box that was now her bed, Amy sprawled in the alley, the mundane day finally sinking in.

Nothing particularly interesting had happened. It usually never did. Winter was coming though. One could feel it in the air. It was drier, colder. Everything had a distinct chill to it, even the behavior of the locals but then again, when didn't their behavior hold such coldness? Laying in the very clothes that she had worn during the days, the dirt coated jeans and thin button down provided barely enough warmth to keep her comfortable. Luckily, that wasn't what had been preoccupying Amy. In fact, to that extent, the cold didn't even bother her anymore. It was the sensation she had in her chest. One of pressure, of pain. A self inflicted knot that grew more powerful with each passing thought. Staring up at the sky, she looked to a single star. Nothing was particularly special about the star. It was simply a dim dot amongst an ocean of similar sparkles. She couldn't help but wonder why she was here. Why in this very spot, in this particular situation. In the end, Amy went back to thinking about what she thought about almost every night. Something that had been bothering her for some time. No friends. None.

She thought about what it would be like to be popular, to be loved. A sensation she had never known and assumed that she would never know. She questioned her own sanity, her ideals. She pondered whether or not there really was such a thing as love or just people so desperate for admiration from their peers that they played the part, day after day with a single partner who they would eventually grow to hate. Amy had known the power of imagination, the ability of masses to believe such widely spread lies that the lies themselves became truth. The idea of money came to mind. Something so simple, so basic... so imaginary. This thing that had supposed value but in reality was of no more worth then that material and labor that went into making it. The idea that a few more zeros written out on a bill could up it's cost one hundred or so times. The only word she could think of that described it was insanity.

Still laying silent, she crossed her arms over her chest in an effort to warm herself in the night air. Falling back into the depths of her own mind, the walls of the real world began to dissolve once more, this time when she closed her eyes. The insides of her lids were like projection screens, colors playing over them amongst the endless fog. Soon, the colors began taking shape and the pain in her chest swelled once more. She saw herself, standing alone. Always alone. On the endless plain, there was a wall. The alley wall. Her hair was stained with blood, thick and matted. The crimson liquid drenched her face, her hair. The once auburn locks were now black, her face but a shadow. Repeatedly, the figure that she recognized as herself began beating her face against the alley wall, smashing into it again and again. Even through the bombardment, the figure stood straight and upon the insides of her lids, Amy could just watch. She couldn't stop it, but each impact she could feel. Amy knew the pain well and along with the building pressure in her chest, her face began to tingle. What she was feeling was a product of her own imagination. Self inflicted pain of the highest caliber.

Snapping her eyes wide open once more, she gaze at the stars, both hands simultaneously reaching for her face. Pressing her finger tips into the flesh of her cheeks, Amy clawed at own face. She needed to escape the constant tingle, she needed to get rid of the pain that had now spread to her face. Amy wanted to dig in and rip out the offending nerve, the obvious defect that was now plaguing her. As more time passed between the vision and her realization, the sensation began to fade. Her fingernails, which were bitten down to the point where any form of pressure caused her discomfort, had done nothing. She was still so very tired. Even now, after that, exhaustion wracked her body and there she laid, lowering her hands once more. In an attempt to shrug it off, Amy took in a deep breath, exhaling just as slowly.

"Back to trying to get some sleep" she muttered to herself. In reality, Amy knew the pain of trying to sleep. She knew how her mind wandered. She had to deal with the same thing almost every night. Closing her eyes once more, the image that was depicted in the spiraling colors of her eye lids was more brutal then the last. A figure, Amy; with a hatchet, her hand laid across a stump. With another flash, a different still came up, this one of the hand disconnected from the body. Every detail of the effect clouded her mind. The tendons, the muscles. The torn and ruptured blood vessels. What had started out as just pressure in her chest had turned into a sickening sensation. Her stomach churned as she watched herself dismember her own body repeatedly. The hand coming off again and again, blood pooling on and around the stump. Tears began welling up in her eyes as she laid shaking on the cardboard box that was her bed. The freedom of tears teased her. How much relief she would feel from flat out sobbing but she sat at the verge. She just couldn't do it. Control wasn't so easy to relinquish.

Her wrist began to tingle. Unlike with her face, this was much deeper. The line of would be disconnect buzzing. The unnerving restlessness once again taking hold. With her thumb, Amy began applying pressure to the underside of her forearm, turning the imaginary into something a bit more realistic. Snapping her eyes open once more, Amy lurched forward, her right hand releasing her wrist as she grabbed at her stomach. Even with open eyes, before her, all she could see was a vision of herself ripping out her own intestine, spilling her own guts on the cardboard bed on which she slept. Finally, the anger was overwhelming and as the tears welled even more, Amy began to sob. Leaning forward farther, she cupped her face in her hands. The mixture of the tears and dirt from her palms stained her face as she cried, silently emptying her heart. Falling backwards into a laying position once more, the quick, emotional purge had finally tired Amy to the point of exhaustion. Closing her eyes yet again, she sobbed into the inner bend of her left elbow, the tears slowly fading, the sobs eventually silencing and her mind finally drifting off to sleep.
10/17/09 04:13
MissyOhhh... poor Amy :(

That was very well written, Amy. Very vivid and descriptive and you made me ache for her.
10/17/09 06:26
KayteearGreat... It's so... dark! :D
I'm wondering what kind of things did Amy do or go through in the past for having such a torment inside her mind...
10/17/09 08:03
NequaelLoved it. Its not very often you get a peek into the inner psyche of the characters in this city, you get to see whats on the outside and what that particular character is trying to portray themselves as, but very rarely you get to hear whats really going on inside their head. Thankyou!10/17/09 12:06
Amy Guisse[quote=Kayteear]Great... It's so... dark! :D
I'm wondering what kind of things did Amy do or go through in the past for having such a torment inside her mind...[/quote]
Well, she recently became a Lycan which was purely accidental ICly and essentially with that and the loss of her demon which was coincidentally her best friend as well, she kind of hates herself.
10/17/09 13:13
IkeI loved it. I've got not contructive critism so this is quite the useless post;) but eh well just wanted to say that I really liked it:D Well written!10/17/09 15:16
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